What is Depression?
Depression is nothing but the mood of the mind which does not flow with life. It is nothing but the energy of your being not being able to cope up with the reality. You have two things – the imaginary life and the real life. Whenever your being does not meet the real life you fall into depression. The conflict between the real life and your being, the reality and your imagination is depression. Most of the time our attachments to the concepts, to the ideologies, to the philosophies, makes us not to move ahead. When society becomes sophisticated, affluent, depression is a luxury. You can have it only when you have other things and not if you don’t have basic needs.
Two Types of Depression
Depression has two types:
1) The depression supported by your ego
2) The depression that makes you feel total inability.
The depression that makes you feel total inability is better. You will understand that you need help from outside. The depression that is supported by your ego will be interested only in the solutions which you feel are solutions. So you may expect some teacher who will support your solution which you already have, which you strongly believe in, even in depression. Depression is not wrong, but depression supported by your ego is something seriously wrong. Even if you have depression, there is every possibility you can be saved if your ego is not supporting your depression. If your ego is supporting your depression you will not listen to the master’s teachings. You will listen only to the teacher who is ready to support your depression, your understanding, your ambition, your ideas, your thoughts. Even if the teacher is trying to move a little away from your conclusions you will shout at them. The worst thing that can happen to a jeeva (soul), the worst mess he can create for himself is supporting his depression by his ego. Depression itself is not wrong. But while you expect your own solution and expect the master to support your solution, you are in a big soup. You can’t be saved. Naturally you will start searching for a teacher who will support your ego. By fulfilling ego you can never walk out of depression.
The Science of Depression
Human being is a great potential bound by distracting, deluding kind of a net, prison. Every single cell of you is having a kind of a covering. That covering constantly represents mortality, delusion. Your cell is constantly struggling to experience immortality. Every single cell in your body, which is the smallest unit in the physical body and thought – the smallest unit in the mental body and the pure light in your conscious body – all put together constitute as the cell. All your smallest units are directly connected. All your smallest units are covered by delusion. In each level your smallest unit is struggling to break from that delusion. At body level that struggle is to get rid of disease and death. At the mental level that struggle is to get rid of depression and disorders. At the conscious level that struggle is to get rid of the delusion and achieve enlightenment. So the point to be understood here is that all your struggles are nothing but struggles to achieve enlightenment. Start struggling directly, you will not waste your time and energy in diluted, diverted attention or direction or decisions. Your struggle to get out of depression is rooted in the same unit where your struggle for enlightenment also happens.
The Only Way Out is In
Even when you have the small struggles, look into the smallest unit where that struggle is happening – that cell, where that struggle is happening. Whenever all the struggles in you are aligned, immediately you are out of delusion. Delusion is nothing but thinking or believing that all these struggles are independent of each other.
Your being needs its own space. Your being needs a little bit of aloneness. But your resistance to give aloneness, your resistance to give space for your being only creates depression. Depression is like a black hole. If you don’t resist and enter into it, it can create a big bang. As long as you resist, depression is a death. When you allow it to happen, it just rejuvenates you totally. When you live totally you will know how to leave totally. If you know how to get depressed totally, you will know how to express yourself totally. The very word depression has a condemnation to it. You do not want to get depressed. You resist continuously with the depression. You resist the black hole. That is why you never let the big bang happen.
From Depression to Expression
Depression has become our nature now. Using the depression as a method is the only way to reach the divine, the way to reach the deep state of expression. As long as you resist the depression, except some more problems, nothing else can be achieved. No medication can help depression. As long as you fight your depression, there is no way to come out of it. It is like fighting with your own shadow. Depression is the seed of expression and expression is the way to depression. They are just cycles of life and death. They are nothing but peak and valley of your being. Peak of your being is expression. Peak of your valley is depression. If you know how to go deep with the depression, how to travel with the depression, then even depression cannot depress you. The very idea of depression will be lost. You can label any experience as a depression or as an expression. It is just your label which makes something as depression or something as expression.
Knowledge Weapons to Combat Depression
Truth from shaastra – shashtras (knowledge weapon) can create ecstasy in the inner space and energy to expand in outer space. Unless you have the courage to go near the truth, the real healing will never happen. When you fall into depression the thoughts which bring you out of the depression, the clarity which brings you out of the depression are the self-healing thoughts which are actually created by shaastra-shastras. Whenever depression attacks you, life brings different scenes in front of you, during which the shaastra-shastras (knowledge weapons) can be used so powerfully that you can just come out of the depression. The more and more you accumulate the self-healing thoughts inside your system, you will see that depression will have fear to come near you. If you want the truth to do the process of healing in you, it has to be digested, internalized. When these truths are added in to you, you will completely re-think, you will re-design your whole life. When the load is taken out of your inner space, there is nothing but healing.
Power of a Feeling Connection With the Divine
Feeling connection to something which is higher than you, either God or Guru, nullifies things from the constant harassment you go through from your body and mind. Feeling connection is the ground where, if the seeds of truth are sown, they become the reality of experience, the tree of experience. There are problems which may not be solved by unclutching, which will be solved by a feeling connection. The pains which you can’t heal, the problems which you can’t get out by unclutching, can be solved only by a feeling connection with something higher than you. A lot of things with which your ignorance survives, a lot of things with which your mind thrives, a lot of things on which your suffering is built, will be taken away from you. Feeling connection with the divinity is the capacity to convert the wisdom into lifestyle with expression, not depression.
Taken from the collected talks of Nithyananda on the subject of “Depression”